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It hurts, It hurts, It hurts all the time, every second of e v e r y d a y. I hurt a lot, too much, my heart feels like it is going to crumble. No, its already crumbled, nothing makes me feel good anymore, and my life has sprialed to a nice great life, and i'm still hurting, still hurting from the past, when will it end? when will i be okay again? It still hurts, right now, i'm hurting, i'm hurting, i'm hurting. make it stop? please? goodness, this is rediculous, how do things get so out of control? i want to be happy, what is stopping me from living life? its me i know, but what inside of me has stopped me from enjoying everything I have??? goodness, this hurts so much. a lot. a lot a lot a lot.

I'm hurting, my smiles are hurt smiles. my laughter is harmed laughter. but i've got peace in knowing that the one is gonna make it wonderful again....
I still hurt, even with peace...