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It hurts, It hurts, It hurts all the time, every second of e v e r y d a y. I hurt a lot, too much, my heart feels like it is going to crumble. No, its already crumbled, nothing makes me feel good anymore, and my life has sprialed to a nice great life, and i'm still hurting, still hurting from the past, when will it end? when will i be okay again? It still hurts, right now, i'm hurting, i'm hurting, i'm hurting. make it stop? please? goodness, this is rediculous, how do things get so out of control? i want to be happy, what is stopping me from living life? its me i know, but what inside of me has stopped me from enjoying everything I have??? goodness, this hurts so much. a lot. a lot a lot a lot.

I'm hurting, my smiles are hurt smiles. my laughter is harmed laughter. but i've got peace in knowing that the one is gonna make it wonderful again....
I still hurt, even with peace...

It's not cool, and you know it.

I hate how, I have no idea what to say to people when they're upset. I always want people to say the right thing to me, but i never have any idea what to say to people when they're upset. so I dont know.
also- love..it sucks? like why cant you just fall out of love with someone when you want. why not?! its lame. you no longer want to love them and it hurts to love them, it hurts not to love them. its a bad situation, why cant you just train your heart not to hurt? goodness...oh well, i just wish it was that way, where you could just, snap your fingers and you don't love anyone you dont want to.
control, i guess in the end, i just want control over my emotions and i also want to know i'm doing/saying the right thing.
oh well.
live laugh love. guess i gotta move on.
-Lindsey